Should I Stay or Should I Go?

It's been a rough couple days.. Hell, weeks. I could probably say months but in all honesty, summer was good for me. It was full of friends, family and a whole lot of silliness. I finally felt like I was somewhat myself again.. I hadn't realized what a boring/miserable person I had become. But believe me, my asshole friends have told me. I've truly enjoyed being back in my home town and once again, getting people drunk like it's my job.. Because once again, it is. Summer was fantastic but I had to finally face what I had run away from back in March. I had to go back to Michigan.

Now I know that I said the past week or so has been hard and you may think that seeing my ex made me completely depressed all over again but it was actually just the opposite. It was like I was seeing an old friend.. And not to mention a VERY happy and even more massive Remi. There was no pain or fear that maybe we did the wrong thing by breaking up. The trip was honestly the best closure I could've had. Relationship wise anyway. The trip also brought back old feelings of why I moved to Michigan in the first place. I remembered how much I loved it there.. Before the boyfriend, before the Remi. I honestly had a panic attack on my way back to New York because I didn't want to leave. (But I hadn't had a panic attack in like 2 weeks so I was over due.)

So now here I am wondering what I should do. Should I stay in New York? Or back to Michigan I go? Can someone let me borrow their crystal ball?